Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Bas yun hi...

Was feeling bored, depressed, down, home sick.. and all sort of negative feelings were churning inside me...

Not able to concentrate on work or the beautiful windy weather i can see outside my office window.

Right now life seems all dull and dark. No idea why am i sounding such a pessimist .. May be its to do with the fact that i am missing my Mom a lot.. i cannot suffice in words how much am i missing her... if i had one wish which will be granted .. I would ask health and happiness for my mom without a second thought...

I sometimes feel God or the Power which we bow to.. is not at all fair. They all say whatever happens is part of your destiny. But who writes our Destiny ??

If it is God .. Why is there not equal distribution of sorrow and happiness across humanity??

Why is it that some people are more sick .. Some are more poor then rest..

Why do we have such disparity .. If God is the one writing our destiny ..
Some people say whatever sufferings you are getting is due to wrongdoings of any past incarnation. Do you believe it ? I don't . and moreover who is the one who decides what is right and wrong. If someone has done any wrong also in their past but have realized the mistake and are sorry for it . Is it not right to forgive them.
Now if God decides to punish . Is God not being wrong here ?

Sunday, September 06, 2009

REC ne Bana Di Jodi ..Part 2

The girl was tough not to be deterred by such emotional/sentimental talks, she told him calmly was just a casual comment not, necessarily meaning anything. She asked him to refile his nomination and stop this trivial matter from becoming the reason for any riots in REC :)
Everything became alright, at least it seemed alright .

Days started passing by normally , this boy stopped teasing her in class and all was well again, back to its normal self.
Some days later the boy was seen at the gate of Girl's hostel, asking the gate keeper to call the girl. She was not liking the idea of meeting him again.
But afraid to say no on the face and invite anymore scandals in her life, she went.
They went to co-operative, sat there spoke. And then they spoke about families, aspirations, dreams etc. He said one thing which touched her heart, very simple thing yet it made a mark. It was that he believes man should be helping around the house and not treat the household chores as women territory. its very simple thing but it was said with sincerity and it made an impact.
They started meeting once in a while and became friends.

This meeting business was put on hold as there were exams and finally vacation came:) everyone was so excited to go home.
It was a nice break and bags full of home made goodies they were back at the college.

Classes started and these two new friends started hanging out together. Life was going on fine . But like any other college there was groupism in this college too.
This girl belonged to a different group (UP and Arunachal )and guy was from different group (Rajasthan) . Some seniors from this girl's group called the boy and hit him. He was a junior and was not authorized to do anything , but it became an issue of tension between two groups..( Not sure how was it sorted) . But these friends kept meeting

It was time for pooja holidays! There was durga puja holiday in college. Again bags were packed and tickets made for trip to sweet home.
Day was 28th September 2001, (it would be better if i say it was night of 28th September).
Girl was called out from his room by their gate keeper saying she had a visitor. It was around 8 pm. In the girl's hostel , they were not allowed to go out after 6 pm in the evening , if any visitor came , there was one hole in the gate , you have to use that for talking. How funny it sounds now!
Anyways she saw this boy was standing at the gate with some gift in hand. He gave her the gift and cards and said this was supposed to be her birthday gift for her upcoming birthday .
After saying No for some 3-4 times, this girl accepted the gift and came in.
There was a card in there it was something like this :

What is in your heart for me..
Is it care.
Is it concern
Is it Love?

she read the card and went to sleep.

Day was 29th September 2001 , It was the day which was going to change the lives of two people forever.Everyone was leaving for their homes for durga pooja vacation, Before leaving for home this group of friends ( including this girl and guy ) decided to visit a temple.
they were walking up the stairs of the temple. Suddenly this guy says 'I love you '. The girl was shocked.. she was not expecting anything like this.. they were friends.
They were in the temple.. girl smiled didnt say anything ... guy was insistent on getting an answer a yes or a no ... smile was not enough for him...

Finally the girl said Yes... oh yes !!!
They went home.. girl got lot of time to introspect what decision she has taken and suddenly it seemed to her like it was wrong thing to do..She decided to end the relationship (even though it hardly began). Vacations over, they came back to college.. This girl started avoiding the guy. Finally he asked her what is the issue , she told (very innocently) she thinks she has taken a wrong decision and can we go back to being only friends again. She was hardly expecting the guy to agree.. But he agreed.

So they were "only friends" again .

...To Be continued